Sunday, September 26, 2010

nothing compares

to often i am to close to this world.

a very large part of my wants to be friends with so many people,
to reach out and love my sisters and brothers, to allow people to see
who i am.
constantly i am broken into peices as i sit, stare and gawk at the
relationships that are forming around me.
everyday i realzie how much i was not born into this world,
that in my newness i was born into a world that is very much separate from
from who i now am.
in these moments of realization i couldn't be more happy, feel more full,
know that i am complete when i shut my eyes and allow myself to escape into
the only relationship worthy of every moment of my time.
i've been allowed to see the heart of women, of men of myself. to know that when i just want to
shreek about the glorious relationship i have that many, often myself, will look at me oddly,
question my love with scripture, urge me to examine myself.
psht, i say.
i'm going to go absolute, insanely so far out there crazy.
as i humble myself in admitting my own pride, inability and lack of friends.
as i cling to the one who gave it all, for me, who has equipped me for each moment,
who desires to know me utmostly.
so i dare to pray to know God like Adam knew God.
because you will always let me down.
you, woman, will never listen to me as much as i need to be listened to.
you, teacher, will never allow me to do as my heart fully desires.
you, husband, will spit in my face when i most needed a kiss.
you, human, man and woman.

"i've tasted Your glory,
and i left it there,
you poured out Your mercy,
and i didn't care.
still You loved me.

nothing compares to what You've done for me."
Prodigal- by Michael Gungor Band

Saturday, September 18, 2010

everything within.

I love being full with the glory.

There is no love greater then this.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Over there

                                     let us//
break free of the mindset of this world.
cast down the idols of this world.
not be content with the world as it is.
see the beauty within each soul.
 speak the words You speak.
 do the works You see done.
incterceed the breaking of chains on lives.
 not become content
desire soooo muuuchhh more
walk in the ways of righteousness
understand the words you speak to us
TRUElllly hear you voice
step out of our own expectations
purge ourselves of our own schedule
not be hindered by the spirits of this world
be encouraged by the grace and mercy You give us
walk as citizens of heaven
redound in praise and honor and glory at the name of Jesus Christ
be crazy- not caring if we lose anything on this earth

love out loud
and offensively.


Wednesday, September 8, 2010

i'm so glad i get to meet Johnny Cash one day.

"I, as a believer that Jesus of Nazareth, a Jew, the Christ of the Greeks, was Anotinted One
of God (born of the seed of David, upon faith as Abraham had faith, and it was accounted to him for righteousness), am grafted onto the true vine, and am one of the heirs of God's covenant with Isreal"
"I'm a Christian," I said. "Don't put me in another box."
[Johhny Cash and an outsider]
via Man In White

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

what's the deal world?
what's up with your ideals?
what's up with your ways?

i'm kinda pretty, fully almost ready to target it,
down right sick of the crap that the world spews.

i'm so glad that i have victory. i'm so sad that
others are full of Irony:
    The use of words to convey a meaning that
  is opposite of it's literal meaning.

by a grace much larger then i can ever imagine
i hope that i can convey a heart that is trying to
as offensively as possible show love.

stare into the eyes of a man and you surely will see the pride inside
stare into the eyes of a woman and you surely will see the pride inside
stare into their eyes hard enough and you will eventually see the life inside

all of creation groans for the sons of man to be revealed
Romans 8:19

Monday, September 6, 2010

be free

I'm glad to know love.

To feel the presence of love sitting by my side.

I want so desperately to know who I am. To spew out the words that are given to me, to behold the glory that is been placed upon me. So often I feel shame in being who I am, but when I'm alone, in the space between my eye's and eyelids I feel so free. Every tear that creeps out, may they show the reflection of what is going on inside, may they release and set free the captive one that has been harboring. The one Holy in being, precious in presence, gentle in his abiding yolk, may He be revealed, may He be allowed to speak, may He move the mountains.
May He stain the aged, worn, becoming, beloved, undeserving folk from youth to worn. May He be allowed in the space between your eye's and eyelids. Don't be afraid to blink. For there is no amount of darkness that can overcome the light.

I'm so glad to know Love.
May I know it more.
You too.